+ Black cat petals and a smiling clown +
Thursday, December 23, 2004
+God bless us merry gentlemen (PART-II)+
FEELING: Steady
HEARING: “Jupiter”- Jewel Kilcher
IN THE MOOD FOR: S’mores and Pringles cheesums.
Tomorrow is Christmas eve. I can hardly feel the Christmas spirit that's supposed to be around us. If not with the help of decorated houses and parols hanging on windows, Its even hard to believe that its already December. The air is humid and the sun,unforgiving as usual.I decided to join my college schoolmates to tagaytay just this Tuesday. It wasn’t cold and everywhere we go, construction is going on. Every coffee shop in town were situated face-to-face with each other which made me think that this was more than what they call a tight competition. As I enjoyed the apple custard cake Alvin brought, just downstairs, construction was goin on for Café lupe infront of starbucks (where we were at). It was two different worlds. (and I mean the situation, not the opposite coffee shops.) A good example of a current third world situation. Inevitable and saddening. While we enjoyed our cups of chocco frappe drizzled with peppermint, the construction workers were cramming work before Christmas. As I watched them from above doing their work; Grinding gravel and passing buckets of heavy cement around, I silently wished them a merry christmas.
+++
All I do is sleep, eat, read, sleep, surf, eat and the cycle goes on. I have just let go of a long time friend. We are not healthy for each other and every time we are together, its just intoxicating. I strongly believe that we should not live on something false. so Goodbye. I already forgave the person for what he/she/did but I cant be friends with the person anymore. its just not worth it.
+++
I have always wanted to buy a big purple notebook from powerbooks. the one with the big yin-yang design in deep purple background.. but its just too expensive. I'd want to write more deeply on fine paper but as Ive said, doin so is costly. hehe..
I rant about this while a lot of people are homeless and hungry. I think I'd settle for a cheap yet decent notebook.
This is all for now. I wish you all a merry christmas and a happy new year!! God bless us merry gentlemen.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 10:14 PM
FEELING: Steady
HEARING: “Jupiter”- Jewel Kilcher
IN THE MOOD FOR: S’mores and Pringles cheesums.
Tomorrow is Christmas eve. I can hardly feel the Christmas spirit that's supposed to be around us. If not with the help of decorated houses and parols hanging on windows, Its even hard to believe that its already December. The air is humid and the sun,unforgiving as usual.I decided to join my college schoolmates to tagaytay just this Tuesday. It wasn’t cold and everywhere we go, construction is going on. Every coffee shop in town were situated face-to-face with each other which made me think that this was more than what they call a tight competition. As I enjoyed the apple custard cake Alvin brought, just downstairs, construction was goin on for Café lupe infront of starbucks (where we were at). It was two different worlds. (and I mean the situation, not the opposite coffee shops.) A good example of a current third world situation. Inevitable and saddening. While we enjoyed our cups of chocco frappe drizzled with peppermint, the construction workers were cramming work before Christmas. As I watched them from above doing their work; Grinding gravel and passing buckets of heavy cement around, I silently wished them a merry christmas.
+++
All I do is sleep, eat, read, sleep, surf, eat and the cycle goes on. I have just let go of a long time friend. We are not healthy for each other and every time we are together, its just intoxicating. I strongly believe that we should not live on something false. so Goodbye. I already forgave the person for what he/she/did but I cant be friends with the person anymore. its just not worth it.
+++
I have always wanted to buy a big purple notebook from powerbooks. the one with the big yin-yang design in deep purple background.. but its just too expensive. I'd want to write more deeply on fine paper but as Ive said, doin so is costly. hehe..
I rant about this while a lot of people are homeless and hungry. I think I'd settle for a cheap yet decent notebook.
This is all for now. I wish you all a merry christmas and a happy new year!! God bless us merry gentlemen.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 10:14 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
+ COUNTING SHEEPS +
FEELING: Awake, alive and a little jumpy.
HEARING: Cornflake girl- Tori Amos
IN THE MOOD FOR: S'mores.
I am having a hard time sleeping. I am so bored, I actually answered a stupid survey I saw on my friendster Bulletin board. read on.
USELESS QUESTIONS:
whole name
+ Jonathan Dexter
nick name
+ rain
age
+ 21
height
+ 5'10
moving on..
Lived without a cell phone for a month?
+ Yes!! Make that 3 months.
Cried in front of your classmates?
+ nah.
Smoked in the CR?
+ yeah. Once.
Gotten drunk?
+ twice.
Skipped a class?
+ all the freakin time.
Hosted an event?
+ I produce events.
Eaten bugs?
+ have you?
Lied in the grass?
+ yeah. But only because we were asked to. (highschool)
kissed a complete stranger?
+ yup. Haha..
sent a message to the wrong person
+Yeah, I guess.
killed someone?
+ oh.. not yet.
consumed a 300php load in a week?
+ make that a half day consumption.
blamed someone for nothing?
+ my bullying days. Yeah.
talked on the phone just to say goodnight?
+ This is trite but uhmm.. yeah.
talked to your pc?
+ yelled at it especially when its fucked up.
hidden a chocolate from somebody?
+ kanina.. from my daddy.
slept in the bathroom?
+ haha.. yeah!!
hugged a guy/girl who's not part of your
family?
+ yeah.
lied to your mother?
+ ohhh.. yes.
watched the american pie trilogy?
+ nah..
fell from your bed?
+ Yup.
kissed yourself in the mirror?
+ never.
forgotten your birthday?
+ yeah. Last year.
kicked a shuttlecock?
+ what kind of question is this?
cried over spilled milk?
+ Idiomatically, I learned to make myself one and
not to sulk over the one I have spilt.
Do you smell your fingers after you’ve just scratched your ass?
+ haha.. no. why smell something that you know is smelly.
Do you eat frozen food?
+ I use the microwave
Is your dad a piss?
+ oh yes.
Would you consider your mom a bitch?
+ the queen of the pack.
are you an asshole
+ come closer and ask me that again.
Do you buy used clothing?
+yup.
World peace or world domination?
+ world peace.
Licked someone’s feet?
+ had someone lick my feet.
Are you horny?
+ I’m a guy.. (not a stag) gotcha!!
Fave color
+ deep purple
Do you care about any of these questions.
+ these are a bunch of stupid questions that I only answered out of complete boredom.
do you drive your own car?
+ nanghihiram lang kay daddy
Is your wallet full?
+ am freakin broke.
you ever had a one night stand?
+ hbxefjkvklgtjlyko7khp..
you smoke pot?
+ bfrjfrvgktbkyjgkbhopkuo..
orgy?
+ WTF? I'm WHOLESOME. haha!! right.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 1:23 AM
FEELING: Awake, alive and a little jumpy.
HEARING: Cornflake girl- Tori Amos
IN THE MOOD FOR: S'mores.
I am having a hard time sleeping. I am so bored, I actually answered a stupid survey I saw on my friendster Bulletin board. read on.
USELESS QUESTIONS:
whole name
+ Jonathan Dexter
nick name
+ rain
age
+ 21
height
+ 5'10
moving on..
Lived without a cell phone for a month?
+ Yes!! Make that 3 months.
Cried in front of your classmates?
+ nah.
Smoked in the CR?
+ yeah. Once.
Gotten drunk?
+ twice.
Skipped a class?
+ all the freakin time.
Hosted an event?
+ I produce events.
Eaten bugs?
+ have you?
Lied in the grass?
+ yeah. But only because we were asked to. (highschool)
kissed a complete stranger?
+ yup. Haha..
sent a message to the wrong person
+Yeah, I guess.
killed someone?
+ oh.. not yet.
consumed a 300php load in a week?
+ make that a half day consumption.
blamed someone for nothing?
+ my bullying days. Yeah.
talked on the phone just to say goodnight?
+ This is trite but uhmm.. yeah.
talked to your pc?
+ yelled at it especially when its fucked up.
hidden a chocolate from somebody?
+ kanina.. from my daddy.
slept in the bathroom?
+ haha.. yeah!!
hugged a guy/girl who's not part of your
family?
+ yeah.
lied to your mother?
+ ohhh.. yes.
watched the american pie trilogy?
+ nah..
fell from your bed?
+ Yup.
kissed yourself in the mirror?
+ never.
forgotten your birthday?
+ yeah. Last year.
kicked a shuttlecock?
+ what kind of question is this?
cried over spilled milk?
+ Idiomatically, I learned to make myself one and
not to sulk over the one I have spilt.
Do you smell your fingers after you’ve just scratched your ass?
+ haha.. no. why smell something that you know is smelly.
Do you eat frozen food?
+ I use the microwave
Is your dad a piss?
+ oh yes.
Would you consider your mom a bitch?
+ the queen of the pack.
are you an asshole
+ come closer and ask me that again.
Do you buy used clothing?
+yup.
World peace or world domination?
+ world peace.
Licked someone’s feet?
+ had someone lick my feet.
Are you horny?
+ I’m a guy.. (not a stag) gotcha!!
Fave color
+ deep purple
Do you care about any of these questions.
+ these are a bunch of stupid questions that I only answered out of complete boredom.
do you drive your own car?
+ nanghihiram lang kay daddy
Is your wallet full?
+ am freakin broke.
you ever had a one night stand?
+ hbxefjkvklgtjlyko7khp..
you smoke pot?
+ bfrjfrvgktbkyjgkbhopkuo..
orgy?
+ WTF? I'm WHOLESOME. haha!! right.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 1:23 AM
Monday, December 13, 2004
+ GOD BLESS US MERRY GENTLEMEN +
FEELING: Steady
HEARING: “Lullaby” – Shawn Mullins
IN THE MOOD FOR: A smoke.
Last night, Manolo, Kittie and I went to town to hang. I treated them at Saisaki for dinner cause we were all in the mood for some Japanese food. (I feel like such a grown up. taking care of the bill. Hehe.. Just like daddy!!) So after dinner, we were all stuffed and got to smoke outside. Manolo then spilled on a little secret why he was having such a hard time walking. He had a tattoo done on his right heel. Haha.. So kittie has a tongue stud, I have an enormous tattoo on my left arm and now Manolo is a new addition to the deviant youth society. Hehe..
I have come to realize that my preferences are slowly changing. Here are some of the few changes in me that I have noticed lately.
+ From sweets and junk treats to FRUITS.
+ From Chillax, Clubbin and Parties to DINNING.
+ From printed shirts to PLAIN ones.
+ From sneakers to LEATHER shoes.
+ From Archie double Digests to SERIOUS Novels and book JOURNALS.
+ From Childish hirits and habits to being QUIET and COUTH.
Haaaay.. Sure. Time has a sneaky way of catching up on us. Nothing is written in stone. But these things are simple reminders of our ever-changing preferences. We all grow up.. and this is pretty much evident in more ways than one.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 6:11 PM
FEELING: Steady
HEARING: “Lullaby” – Shawn Mullins
IN THE MOOD FOR: A smoke.
Last night, Manolo, Kittie and I went to town to hang. I treated them at Saisaki for dinner cause we were all in the mood for some Japanese food. (I feel like such a grown up. taking care of the bill. Hehe.. Just like daddy!!) So after dinner, we were all stuffed and got to smoke outside. Manolo then spilled on a little secret why he was having such a hard time walking. He had a tattoo done on his right heel. Haha.. So kittie has a tongue stud, I have an enormous tattoo on my left arm and now Manolo is a new addition to the deviant youth society. Hehe..
I have come to realize that my preferences are slowly changing. Here are some of the few changes in me that I have noticed lately.
+ From sweets and junk treats to FRUITS.
+ From Chillax, Clubbin and Parties to DINNING.
+ From printed shirts to PLAIN ones.
+ From sneakers to LEATHER shoes.
+ From Archie double Digests to SERIOUS Novels and book JOURNALS.
+ From Childish hirits and habits to being QUIET and COUTH.
Haaaay.. Sure. Time has a sneaky way of catching up on us. Nothing is written in stone. But these things are simple reminders of our ever-changing preferences. We all grow up.. and this is pretty much evident in more ways than one.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 6:11 PM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
+ HEHEHE +
FEELING: Steady
HEARING: "Ugly girl" - Flemming and John
IN THE MOOD FOR: Some hershey nuggets.
Today marks the first day of the rest of my life. They say life begins at 40. I say, la vida loco starts at 21. haaaaaaaaay..
xoxoxoxo
¶ 11:09 PM
FEELING: Steady
HEARING: "Ugly girl" - Flemming and John
IN THE MOOD FOR: Some hershey nuggets.
Today marks the first day of the rest of my life. They say life begins at 40. I say, la vida loco starts at 21. haaaaaaaaay..
xoxoxoxo
¶ 11:09 PM
Monday, December 06, 2004
+ ANOTHER UNTITLED ENTRY +
FEELING: Anxious.
HEARING: “Why does it always rain on me” – Travis
IN THE MOOD FOR: S’mores.
In two days, I’ll be 21.I deal with it like it’s any different from being 20. hehe. oh well.. The peter pan wish turned into the captain hook curse.
Last night, I was at MJ’s house. Just walked around the park, had a stick and made fun of the white guy playing ball which he mistook as Claudio.
MJ was all fucked up (as usual) missing important stuff. I was there to help him with his script writing final project and he misplaced the CD where he saved it. The CD was his back up copy cause he deleted his original copy. Funny, he frets to fail the subject and I just found out who his strict teacher was.. Mr. Sid Hildawa. I was laughing after he’s revealed who his teacher was because after all, I was Mr. Hildawa’s favorite student. Hehe.. small world.. school, I mean.
+
For the past few days, Ive been having an LSS (Last-song-syndrome) on a Whitening lotion commercial jingle.. Shine.. Shine!! Like the stars.. blah.. blah. Hehe. I hear it everywhere.
+
My friend Manolo, I can say he’s far from theatrical. He’s more into pop and mainstream. I was shocked when he told me he likes the musical “wicked” and “Avenue-Q” Gah!!!!!! Everybody’s into it (well, almost) and I’m not.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 11:36 AM
FEELING: Anxious.
HEARING: “Why does it always rain on me” – Travis
IN THE MOOD FOR: S’mores.
In two days, I’ll be 21.I deal with it like it’s any different from being 20. hehe. oh well.. The peter pan wish turned into the captain hook curse.
Last night, I was at MJ’s house. Just walked around the park, had a stick and made fun of the white guy playing ball which he mistook as Claudio.
MJ was all fucked up (as usual) missing important stuff. I was there to help him with his script writing final project and he misplaced the CD where he saved it. The CD was his back up copy cause he deleted his original copy. Funny, he frets to fail the subject and I just found out who his strict teacher was.. Mr. Sid Hildawa. I was laughing after he’s revealed who his teacher was because after all, I was Mr. Hildawa’s favorite student. Hehe.. small world.. school, I mean.
+
For the past few days, Ive been having an LSS (Last-song-syndrome) on a Whitening lotion commercial jingle.. Shine.. Shine!! Like the stars.. blah.. blah. Hehe. I hear it everywhere.
+
My friend Manolo, I can say he’s far from theatrical. He’s more into pop and mainstream. I was shocked when he told me he likes the musical “wicked” and “Avenue-Q” Gah!!!!!! Everybody’s into it (well, almost) and I’m not.
XOXOXOXO
¶ 11:36 AM
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
+ UNTITLED ENTRY +
FEELING: Stuffed. Just ate a bunch of comfort food.
HEARING: “Till I hear it from you” – Gin Blossom
IN THE MOOD FOR: A baby Ruth bar
Yesterday, I bumped in to MJ and Adrian at Chowking. Soon enough, I heard a familiar voice. Buzzing almost everyone; it was Maggie. ( She’s everybody’s friend ) and we all headed to a new tambayan called “Blady’s” or whatever it’s called. Got some free cig from Maggie and she introduced me to some people there. Models and other popular kids dominate the place. I wasn’t really sure why I tagged along but there I was sitting next to those people. She introduced me to this utterly “intimate” couple (the guy’s French and the girl had her hair dyed black.) They were going at it but I wasn’t really interested with the peep show. I was broke and badly wanted a bottle of beer. Adrian and MJ had to leave cause they had to type or something so I was left with Maggie and the hot couple outside the café. I wasn’t really comfortable so I told them I had to go back to school.
I’m still not comfortable around new people. The thought of having to talk to them cause I’m stuck with them makes me feverish. Gotta hone my social skills. If I’ve any.
+
My parents are coming home tomorrow. I miss them and I can’t wait to get a hold on the stuff they got me. Hehe..
Let us move a day back..
+ STARRY STARRY NIGHT + (SUNDAY)
The winds were blowing furiously and later, we had a blackout. It was really dark and we all had a hard time looking for candles. I had to get a souvenir candle from the altar. As I was talking to Manolo on the phone, I heard Kittie calling in from the dark. Haha.. scary. This girl has a funny way of popping in when you least expect it. We had electricity in no time and we invited Manolo over. We feasted on packed nuts like a bunch of chickens then kittie suggested that we make the oatmeal paste for our facial frenzy. All through out Manolo was whining on how his face felt hard and clogged and shit s of other rants. I wanted to gag him with a shoe and toss him out of the house but I decided to be nice.
That’s all for now. 7 days to go before I turn 21. hehe..
XOXOXOXO
¶ 5:05 PM
FEELING: Stuffed. Just ate a bunch of comfort food.
HEARING: “Till I hear it from you” – Gin Blossom
IN THE MOOD FOR: A baby Ruth bar
Yesterday, I bumped in to MJ and Adrian at Chowking. Soon enough, I heard a familiar voice. Buzzing almost everyone; it was Maggie. ( She’s everybody’s friend ) and we all headed to a new tambayan called “Blady’s” or whatever it’s called. Got some free cig from Maggie and she introduced me to some people there. Models and other popular kids dominate the place. I wasn’t really sure why I tagged along but there I was sitting next to those people. She introduced me to this utterly “intimate” couple (the guy’s French and the girl had her hair dyed black.) They were going at it but I wasn’t really interested with the peep show. I was broke and badly wanted a bottle of beer. Adrian and MJ had to leave cause they had to type or something so I was left with Maggie and the hot couple outside the café. I wasn’t really comfortable so I told them I had to go back to school.
I’m still not comfortable around new people. The thought of having to talk to them cause I’m stuck with them makes me feverish. Gotta hone my social skills. If I’ve any.
+
My parents are coming home tomorrow. I miss them and I can’t wait to get a hold on the stuff they got me. Hehe..
Let us move a day back..
+ STARRY STARRY NIGHT + (SUNDAY)
The winds were blowing furiously and later, we had a blackout. It was really dark and we all had a hard time looking for candles. I had to get a souvenir candle from the altar. As I was talking to Manolo on the phone, I heard Kittie calling in from the dark. Haha.. scary. This girl has a funny way of popping in when you least expect it. We had electricity in no time and we invited Manolo over. We feasted on packed nuts like a bunch of chickens then kittie suggested that we make the oatmeal paste for our facial frenzy. All through out Manolo was whining on how his face felt hard and clogged and shit s of other rants. I wanted to gag him with a shoe and toss him out of the house but I decided to be nice.
That’s all for now. 7 days to go before I turn 21. hehe..
XOXOXOXO
¶ 5:05 PM
